WHAT IS ACCEPTANCE?

Hi there. Let me start by saying I'm HIV positive. I'm still having trouble accepting it though. (well, it's just a month ago that I've found out about it, so hope you understand.) As me and sister were saying, "this is the kind of stuff that you just watch from a distance but never thought could happen to you or your love ones." Maybe this is also the reason why I'm doing this blog, so I can make the first step towards acceptance of this new life. I need to release in a way all the emotions and thoughts that are running through my mind.

One of these thoughts that keeps on lingering is the word ACCEPTANCE. People always say it, " You cannot go any further if there is no acceptance of who and what you are." But what really is the meaning of word "acceptance"? According to Webster's dictionary it is the act of accepting with approval or a favorable reception. Well, it wasn't really in my case, I cannot say hurray I have HIV thank you doc! Let's try another definition; it is the act of taking something that is offered. Wow! another insult for me hehehe. We'll if only I knew that besides the offers or let me say seductions done towards me that later would cause my world to turn upside down, then I would definitely decline that offer of a short-lived ecstasy.

One definition of this word that I can accept is this; A disposition to tolerate or accept people or situations. Since it's hard for me to face the fact that I'm no longer Superman, but I also need to remind myself that I did make a lot of not so wise decisions that lead me to where I am right now. So I have submitted myself with a good grace and with GOD's help a life of POSITIVITY .